Saturday, October 2, 2010

I wonder

I'd like you to take a trip with me. One without even having to leave the comfort of your own chair. The safe zone of your own self made normality. I want you to look at this picture. Within a second we have already made progress on our trip. This picture speaks to you in some sort of way. It might be telling you something of your childhood. Maybe it reminds you of times with your friends. Journey with me to your Childhood. To the beginning of you.  

I want you to think back with me. Think back to your first day of school. You can still remember the butterflies dancing in your stomach. Years and years have past to catch you up to the present but you can still fondly remember the sights and sounds of childhood. While Adult life is crowded by the mess and mingle of emotions you don't even understand. Childhood seems to be something we never dwell on much. Because as much as we hate to admit it. We know we will never see the bright days like we did when we were a child again

. During the ages of 3-6 we are setting up the building blocks to our future without us even knowing it. We are discovering what self esteem is and what it is to think for ourselves on a more mentally demanding scale. Though at this age we are still climbing the hill to Adult-Hood and are easily effected by what most people have to say. You have probably at this age started to find what you like to do besides what your parents tell you to. For example at this age. You are wanting to dress yourself in what you think looks suitable to describe the person you are becoming. Maybe your parents aided you in the process by allowing you to express yourself in short bursts. Or allowing you to pick whats for dinner that night. Did your parents show a general genuine interest in what you wanted as your own person. Or did that lay the hammer down. And tell you your life will run the way they allow it to. Fact is. If the parents didnt allow you to express yourself even for just bits at a time. You were already slowing losing yourself and trying to adapt to what everyone around you wanted. If you were being told no to certain simple tasks. Subconsciously you were feeling as though you couldn't do simple things. So did your parents allow you to become your own person. Or were you always caught up in the belief that everything needed to be done for someone else?  Traveling even further in time now. We have started to break away from our parents when others are around. But behind closed doors rely on them for almost everything.  Friend-Ship and understanding starts playing a role in this age of mental development. For at the root of all Humans we are social animals. We desire even if we don't see it. The want for social interaction. Though there is always a rule breaker. And some children fall away to discover everything on their own. Most times in school at a early age. We become friends with someone just because they like and enjoy one thing that we do. 'Utility friends' are friends that you seem to never know what happened to. Because as age progressed that one thing you used to enjoy doing. Slid away. And with that interest. So went the friend. But you may have noticed. You did have one or two friends that stood out. Because everything seemed to click and link together from the get go. These are called Character Friendships. In which you are known for being the person you are inside and out. And knowing them for the person they are inside and out. These are the friends you may of had up until High School. Or the one who became your best friend. 

Next to come is being a teenager. This is the time of life that sticks out like a neon flag in a dark room. You as a teenager. Are inclined to make rash decisions jump on the wagon for almost everything and never give anything a second thought. 

"The seat of such poor judgment might be found in the white matter microstructure in the brain's prefrontal cortex, says Marisa Silveri, PhD, a psychologist in Yurgelun-Todd's lab. The frontal cortex is associated with decision-making, insight, judgment and inhibitory control. Silveri, Yurgelun-Todd and colleagues use diffusion tensor imaging (DTI) to examine white matter microstructure, the part of the brain that's responsible for relaying signals between neurons in the gray matter. During adolescence, particularly in the frontal cortex, unneeded gray matter is pruned away and white matter, made up of axons covered by a lipid membrane known as myelin, increases.
"Similar to the concept of electrical wiring, adding insulation around a bare wire improves connectivity, and the thicker the insulation, the better the transmission of a signal from point A to point B," says Silveri. "Myelination, or the insulating of axons, allows more rapid and efficient communication between neurons."
Social Anxiety increases as well at this age in life. You are now very concerned with the way people perceive you and you are always wanting to fit into what they crowd likes. This is another section where bad judgement comes into play. You jump on board with your 'friends' to fit in. And not become a joke of the school. 

What I am getting at. The reason Childhood is so fondly remembered from my stand point at least.Is because this is where we grew into what we are today. All the experiences we ever had molded us away from our original from. And made our new John or Jane Doe. 

Did you think of anything in your childhood during this? Did you just maybe even for a second recall a nice Christmas with your family? If so. You went on the journey I wished you could have. You went back even for just a second. To the building blocks of today. The world in which you and the people around you. Created. Welcome to life. Whats next?

                                                                   *Based on personal Belief" 
*A overview of things running in my mind" 


  1. That really made me think. Worth the read :)

  2. That picture make some of my feelings for wondering aimlessly throughout the world resurface

  3. Nicely written. It's given me something to think about.

  4. Nostalgia is a wonderful thing, isn't i?

  5. hey, this is one of my more favorite posts from you :)

  6. Definitely giving me some things to think about. Good read.

  7. Shit man that was an awesome post.

  8. shit your backgroudn on top scared the shit out of me