Thursday, September 30, 2010

Sleep never came.

How I wish sleep would of came to me tonight. I've been struggling with sleep ever since I could remember though. It could be an effect of stress. Or the fear that my dreams are nothing less than haunting every time I drift into a supposed environment of blissful serenity. This picture seems to put my mind at rest. To some degree the layout and colors mix and mingle to form a peace in my mind. Whereas mostly my mind is a tug of war. With neither side winning. I suffer (and I use the term suffer for the very reason of its root nature) from anxiety. A worried mind assuming the worst in everything. Paranoia is right up at the top of the list as well. Most times people are able to drift from problems and sleep at night. For me I lay awake in a constant churn of devilish thoughts. To be honest I wish sleep would come even if I knew the nightmares I was going to be subdued to. As for now. My mind is racing and I feel like I am in a state of haze. I will update later. Happy blogging! 

By the way! On a more happy note. I finished the Halo Reach Campaign today. Really enjoyed the game. I feel Halo Reach is Halo at its best. Thanks for reading.

And sorry for the short uninteresting blog. Just what was on my mind :)


  1. Aw, I'm sorry to hear about your troubles.

    I have a type of anxiety myself, and I know how hard it can be to cope with.

    I hope things get better for you, you just have to take it one step at a time.

    Hang in there.

  2. Have fun with your Halo and try to take care of yourself.

  3. Im with you Halo reach kicked alot of ass. I really hope you feel "better", I get that way sometimes as well, shit sucks, but it gets better