I'm at a loss for words. It seems every single day there is a new issue that just really seems to be getting under my skin. May it be a certain person. Or even a certain event. Over these last few years mostly between the age of 14 through 19 Ive noticed that people who used to be my friends MOST certainly are not anymore. I ponder the changes that I myself have made of course but also examine the changes they have made as well. When you are growing up life is more about just fitting in rather than claiming anything in life for yourself. You just roll with things and act accordingly. But as you age I start to notice that most people become far more outgoing and in such lose friends that they used to just get along with because they were there. Now that I am 19 I have a lot im concerned about. To be honest I really don't even know for sure what ground I stand on. Everything seems to be getting so confusing and piecing the puzzle together has proved to become somewhat of a challenge. I suppose you could say I am stuck in the middle. In a middle ground of trying to retain what it means to be a child but also the effect of push from adults saying I need to become such. Life always posses new challenges that we must overcome and sometimes we really don't know how to. And with that said. I suppose I will be stuck in the middle. Most blogs from here on out will not be as serious or maybe they will. I am just using this experience as part of a daily notebook to just vent my thoughts. Just to see who might relate.
Wow, this was a very deep and heartfelt post. I can totally relate with how you feel. It's a very fluid foundation we are standing on right now, isn't it? I feel that this is also why this period in life is also the best for trying new things and experimenting with who you want to be. I do miss the stoicism of childhood, but I'm in no rush to be an adult!
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